July 31, 2010

A Week of Vacation

Consists of:

Black-Eyed Susans in a blue glass;
fish biting my metallic pink polished toes;
loons calling softly across the water;
old houses, barns, and farms both abandoned and habited;
reading and games on the kitchen porch each night as a family;
kayaking out to see dawn from the middle of the lake when the moon and sun both share the sky;

wandering upon a simple outdoor chapel;
watching Venus rise after each sunset;
warming toes by an outdoor fire at night;
a picnic lunch up on a mountain;
drinking tea on the kitchen porch by candle light, pen in hand;
waking to the full moon just before sunrise, casting a glow over the shore;
the echo of the yips and howls of a pack of coyots, some twenty strong, at midnight;
neon blue dragonflies mating over the shallow water by the pines...
To put simply. this week was surrounded by beauty.

July 18, 2010

Closure

Is a very good thing.

I guess he isn't such a jerk. He seemed to be sorry; sad he had to end things as he did. That alone, after I've had time to put it all behind me, was a comfort. We acted normal at the wedding, not really talking, but not ignoring each other. And then as I went to leave he approached me and told me he had the two books he'd borrowed from me. We went to his truck and made some small talk - more than anything we'd said to each other since the breakup. It ended quickly, but with a brief hug.I didn't feel anything other than my nerves when I first saw him. I missed him, but at the same time I didn't. It was good to see him.

I'm happy, for both the resolve of my first relationship and the celebration of my friends' union.



That cake was made by the groom's 12 year old brother! His other brother, a cook, decorated it. I must say it tasted amazing. I hereby declare that any boy of mine shall know how to bake!

July 15, 2010

Friday Night Wedding

The weird part: they're not much older than I am; they're only 21.

Awkward factor: my ex will be there and I'll see him for the first time since he dumped me.

The very weird and awkward part: the four of us went on several double dates.

So tomorrow night, I'm going to look freakn' awesome and have a great time. I'm going to prove to myself that I can move on. I'm thinking little black dress, some heels, and makeup. If you only knew the way I dressed you'd know the profoundness of that last statement.

The wedding present; not quite the crosses I wanted, but I was behind on making them and couldn't find any that worked better.
On second thought: I have friends that are getting married?!?!?! WHAT? I'm too young for that!

July 11, 2010

Virgin Mary on a Grilled Cheese

I dearly love a good grilled cheese. Especially if there is a hint of mustard. But the Virgin Mary on a grilled cheese? Seriously?

I know it's old news. It was sold on eBay, most people laughed, some crazies thought it was real. While watching tv once I was surprised when the infamous cheesy sandwich made a guest appearance.

That's right, the almost toothless woman who somehow created a sandwich with a burn that resembles the face of a woman, got a tattoo of the sandwich on her chest/breast. Um...wha???

PS. The only thing that makes me wonder about this is the fact that the sandwich hasn't molded and seems in perfect condition...

July 4, 2010

This Summer: Beaches

thunder storm clouds
the Atlantic
a painter & some fog
and of course gloriously blue skies

July 1, 2010

A Little Secret

I don't really tell people this, but music is a rather large part of what helped me realize that there was a God. I don't share this because I'm afraid people hear it and discredit my belief and faith. But what can I say? Music touched my soul. The lyrics got me to think. I related to the emotion. I took courage from the songwriters and singers who believed and expressed their belief. Music is food for the soul; It conveys what words alone often cannot.

I suppose it started when I was walking home from high school in the fall. I was listening to an alternative rock station on a little MP3 player I'd found when Matisyahu's "King Without A Crown" came on. I hadn't really listened to much music up until that point. I like some of my parents music and that was about it. I fell in love with Matisyahu's music as soon as I looked up the rest of his songs on the computer when I got home.

Each musician, in their own way, captures a bit of what I love about faith. They capture the love, heart break, longing, frustration, and hope of life.