This view puts me at odds with many things. I often feel as if I don't belong to a church. But I'd like to. I claim to be Catholic. But I always feel that I am not really, because I hold this view. I get the sense from others within churches that they do actually believe everything literally. They stand there and say that they know something is 100% true. I only know a few things that are in my heart of hearts true: There is a God. He is good. He loves us. We should love Him. We should love all others. As for everything else, well to be honest, none of it really seems to matter in comparison. I don't know if Jesus really walked this Earth. Or if Moses really was over five hundred years old. Or whether or not Mary was a virgin. I don't even know if everything is as it appears. Does that make sense? The cycle could go on forever. If I sometimes doubt these things and if I sometimes choose to not spend so much time worrying about them so I can do what I know is right, does that make me not a Catholic? Or not a Christian? It's okay to me if things didn't happen exactly as the bible says. For instance I don't think the world was created only 6,000 years ago. I don't think we walked the earth with dinosaurs. Perhaps it is only that old and we did, I'm not God thus I don't know for sure. But would it really be the end of the world if it wasn't all true? If Genesis was much more poetic than factual?
God exists outside of time and of all I can currently see. Trying to understand Him makes me feel so small, so baffled by how great He must be, and so in awe of how wonderful He is. There is this feeling that overwhelms me, and I know that it is only a fraction of what He is. I know that this is love. He is love. And that is the core of the matter.
