Oh, it's been awhile since I've had a crush like this. I'm absolutely enamored. He sat behind my first semester in college in a lecture, and then I'd run into him every now and then on campus, at my work, and in a class or two. We'd say hi, occasionally stop and chat for a second, but not until this semester did I have feelings. We talked longer when we ran into each other, and I sensed something there. He causally mentioned he didn't have my number the other day, and we agreed to hang out before finals. He texted me wondering if I'd like to grab lunch and go for a walk in the park.
Now to any girl this screams "DATE". But to a few of the guys I talked to, it didn't. And I can't help but think it wasn't, that he was only interested in getting to know me as a friend? I saw him again the other night, we hung out in this dorm. We talked for a solid 2 hours and then watched the newest episode of Glee. (Oh yea, that's right, he watches Glee. Also his style is semi-Jonny-Depp-ish. He wears some jewelry and pulls it off well and use to have long hair. He dresses nicely, but not preppy or as if he bought it all at the mall. He's taken psych and philosophy courses, and wants to go to med school. He sings, and likes good music. He's chill and was raised Catholic but more or less does his own thing when it comes to religion. He's sweet and interesting, and hilarious. UM! Keeper? I think so.) Then his friends came in (I know one of them well), and we hung out. I caught him looking at me throughout all of us hanging out. Perhaps he likes me? Perhaps not? So many cues, so many ambiguous signals and signs, so much doubt in my mind.
When I left several hours later, I made sure to mention that we should keep in touch while I was abroad, and then initiated a hug. Who knows? *Sigh*
